Monday, November 17, 2008
To Whom Much is Given, Much is Expected.
I had someone steal from me over the weekend. What they took wasn't terribly valuable, and it was (somewhat) returned, and they apologized, but I am struggling with this nonetheless. I'm struggling, first, with the fact that someone went through my things and stole from me, which is an icky sort of violation, I'm struggling with the fact that when they returned the things they stole, they didn't return everything, and I'm struggling with the fact that I'm not sure what my role as a Christian here is. I forgive her for what she did. I even kind of understand why she did it. I like to think of myself as a caring and forgiving person, someone who does look out for the least of these, and for the most part, I think I am. But yet, I'm angry. And disappointed. And, a part of me wants my stuff back. I'm ashamed of that part. I have been given so much, and to quibble over a few small things seems petty, but to me, it kind of negates the apology. It's kind of like "I'm sorry I got caught, but I'm gambling you won't notice I didn't bring everything back cause I'd like to keep your Vera Wang Princess perfume". If you wanted to keep it, you could have just asked me, instead of stealing from me. I'm open to all suggestions and advice here. Just needed to share.